one word Friday

I had full hopes of writing something fun and wonderful, and maybe even inspiring,
But I got nothing, its a snow day today, and that's the only happy thought I have for today,
It hasn't been the greatest of new year so far, with feeling of Blah...ugh...and ...Grrrr, a little sad,
little less smiles, I tried, I try real hard to dig down and pull one out from who knows where, but even if a smile appears on my face, its very short lived, due to fear, doubt and uncertainty.
 I think this is what they call the winter blues, or maybe maybe something unpleasant lies ahead, and I sure hope not, last time I had such feelings by boy ended up in the hospital for 4 months , and he has been acting a little less like himself but nothing I can put my finger on, so here's to oping he's just all right, and I'm just a big bag of cray!

So before I depressed  you any further, lets just get right to the game, its Friday, and that's what needs to happen, oh ya...and cause its fun! thanks +Juliet deWal !(and sorry, but I  copied and pasted a little more then the questions, I copied the rules too, I'm a little lazy with my tying)




Here are the ground rules for the newbies:

1. After reading my answers, copy and paste the list into your comment.
2. Change my one-word responses with yours (yes, only ONE WORD, even if it hurts the most painful of hurts).
3. Submit your comment.
4. And hey, you can always post your finished list on your blog, too. (Yes, a post idea! You’re welcome.) Enjoy.
5. THEN watch this.

You’re Feeling: worried
To Your Left: door
On Your Mind: life
Last Meal Included: cabbage
You Sometimes Find it Hard To: math
The Weather: snowy
Something You Have a Collection of: concert tickets
A Smell that Cheers You Up: coffee
A Smell that Can Ruin Your Mood: Cigarettes
How Long Since You Last Shaved: today
The Current State of Your Hair: mess
The Largest Item On Your Desk/Workspace Right Now (besides computer): phone
Your Skill with Chopsticks: questionable
Which Section You Head to First In the Bookstore: biography
…and After That?: kids
Something You’re Craving: chocolate
How Many Times You’ve Been Hospitalized this Year: Zero
A Favorite Place to Go for Quiet Time: bed
You’ve Always Secretly Thought You’d Be a Good: nurse
Something that Freaks You Out a Little: my boy
Something You’ve Eaten Too Much of Lately: unsure
You Have Never: spandex
You Never Want To: lose
You Really Want To: win

I had to cheat once with 2 words, I love my boy, but he sure freaks me out sometimes

The time Steven Tyler never came to dinner

Though I love all and everything Steven Tyler (I like to call myself his future ex wife), this actually has very little to do with him, for some reason I had the tittle '' the time Steven Tyler never came to dinner" stuck in my head, so why not use it anyway.

 so even though I never really invited Steven Tyler over for Dinner, There was that time, I did have 3rd row concert seats when I was like 20, i was taking my Dad for his Birthday, was really gong to score "best daughter ever" with that one (sorry Michelle and Kayla, you understand right), well, It didn't happen, just hours before the concert ended, Steven Tyler had to cancel the show due to a headache...CRUSHED! the show was not re scheduled. so, no Steven , and no Daughter of the year .

I want to take back myself a little, my love of music, Rock stars, 80's music still live inside of me.
Though The 80's was not my ERA, I was all of 10 when it ended. Lets never talk about the '90s era, Not much good came out it, at least music wise.
Nothing can brighten my day more then my sons bright eyes, and playing Areosmith real loud, while I clean house, or strap on my headphones and go walking, Steven Tyler's voice goes with Everything!

 Ive also took up yoga a month and some ago, and I love it! really really love it, and Ive been faithful to it,and eating healthier , which means, I mainy only shop in the produce section, I live on veggies, fruit, eggs, chicken , and homemade soups. I have a true love and passion for spinach, it goes with everything, I can hide it real well in food too.
 I make sure to get out for fresh air when ever I can, being couped up inside is enough to drive anyone crazy.
 Doing just these little things do help and my jeans have never fit better.


 Being a stay at home mom of 3 and to a complex boy 24/7, has a way of making you forget who you really are, you develop a pattern of only tending to house and kids, and sleep? well...that's something long ago .

 I get a little sad, have feelings o worthlessness, Some days, I just wish I could get up and go out to work like everyone else, being a single income household is a real struggle sometimes, and you have to make every penny count, and there's not much left for savings,
but also just to get out and do my own thing, among other adults who call me by my first name , instead of mom.

 But for the most part, I love being home with my kids, truly watching them grow and knowing I'm not missing anything of their little lives, and that I can take true pride in all they accomplish , knowing i had just a little part in their success.

 And I wouldn't want no one else to come in and take care of Johnathon (my complex boys) He and I have come into a world that sometimes feels like its just he and I, we depend on each other like the air we breath, I love him so, and never want to face a life without him, I don't think there is a world for me without him. however, there is that once or twice a year I steak of to a rock concert , a few hours all to myself drooling of the leather pan-tattooed hotness on stage, oh ya...and the great music too.

 So if I find myself getting ,down, I just pick my long face up off the ground, and think its not that bad, nothings ever really that bad and its always going to be alright, its always going to be alright.

 Oh and @IamStevenT , please do feel free to come to Dinner if you wish! besides, I think you owe me!

 

the wiching hour

 So I though I would come and Visit this abandoned blog of mine, its been a while ,
 I'm busy, I'm a mom, and I'm unfaithful (look up "the Johnathon Diaries, " that's where I moved all the stories of my boy), and I'm just not very dedicated, but theres so much to say and write about , which I won't , cause also, I'm a little lazy,

 Ive had a really strange week, nothings really as it seems, I have moods that are all put out of place, feel some sort of unsettling in the air, its unnerving really, and my boy, well...hes just been acting a little funny, but in ways I can't really explain, well, I could if I tried, but I don't wanna, it makes me worry, I call this the "witchy hours" . some kind of haunting in the air. And I'm just nervous about everything, i packed a suitcase to go to Toronto the other day, because my son wasn't feeling good. by the time I got all ready to leave, he calmed down, and it was real icy out so I opted to stay, but that suitcase is still packed, aah, heck, its always pre packed (you don't EVER want to get stranded without a toothbrush, deodorant, and clean under ware , for goodness sakes!) ya, its happened, that's all I wanna say there!

  So anyway , during my lazy and unfaithfulness  to my own writing, I do read others faithfully,
one of my favourites its @julietdeWal, shes a twitter friend, and one HECK of a writer!(she sells books too, written by her of course)  and this is her game!

After reading my answers, copy and paste the list into your comment.

Change my two-word responses with yours (that’s right – two words only).

Submit your comment. Go over to your blog. Add your own. Let me know, and I’ll come play there, too.

1. What wakes you: my boy
2. Your initial look in the mirror reveals: scary hair
3. You usually first put on: slippers
4. Your closet: a mess 
5. Your mood before 11am: questionable
   
6. The first thing you look at online after email: twitter
7. Something you tend to snack on: carrots
   
8. What you see out your front door: Moria high school
9. Your takeout menus: Swiss chalet
10. Number of boxes of tissue out in your home right now: o #fail
    
11. The way you sneeze would read: SHIT!!!
12. Number of times a day you probably brush your hair: don't
13. The most predominant thing in your pantry: cereal
14. A smell commonly coming from your kitchen: chicken
    
15. How you sort your books: don't
16. The way you keep your place in a book: bent page
17. Something you hide when people come over: bedroom
18. Number of people normally at your table during dinner: 5
    
19. Something you put on your nightstand before bed:sat monitor( for my boy)
20. How high you pull the covers when you go to sleep:neck high

so there it is, hope you enjoy, And if this post makes no sense, well, I haven't slept in 8yrs, and I'm a little tired:)